life's blues..

well, no matter what we think of it, our life always proves to have come in best possible way. At least it is the case for me. Whenever i look back, I find that whatever life has given to me, was the best thing i could have. Of course there are things that i wish haven't had happened. but sky doesn't remain clear always. We can't be always on safer side. there is always night after day but also morning after night. nothing is stable. As far as my life is concerned yeah i have set up a few goals which i think will make me satisfied when i take my last breath but still i am not sure about the purpose of my life. may be i ll know it in some later part of my life. Whenever i think of it, I end up being muddled or flooding my eyes. I too don't want steadiness in my life but i try to think why i have done some things which i fear even to think of, yet i did them. no one knows what lies inside our minds that pushes us to break all the limits. sometimes things are irreversible. permanently damaged. so is the case with me. I can't even look in their eyes. that makes me keep my head down and that's the thing i regret the most. perhaps these are what is real blues in one's life.....

the question is still unanswered

well...i m starting to share the things on blog for first time so please excuse any linguistic problem but its not funny topic which i wanna discuss. Its about the most serious disease today, Cancer, which medical science claims to have found cure for, but i m 100% sure there is nothing yet for it. everything they offer you, either surgery, chemotherapy, radiation or herbal injection. nothing seems to be working out. I asked some of the nurses working @ Mahaveer cancer research hospital which is one of the most prestigious institution for cancer treatment. She said rigidly that there hasn't been any case till now who has survived. Sometimes it might have given them some more time but then the time that is allowed has to be spent bearing a pain which you and i even can't think of. the patient just keeps on waiting for his/her end and wishes he has never started to take any of the suggested cure by medical science. If such kinda hospital which claims to have treated so many patients, if there is no case of survival yet, then the question remains unanswered that is there any cure or not???? well if u ask me how i know so many things about it then it is because my father had cancer. he went through every cure possible
and yet he died fighting the disease in such a manner that we wouldn't wish any human being to die in that way. I saw the terrible infection alive in his mouth and it was still growing but we could do nothing. everyday the medication was changed. everyday there were blood tests,
secretion tests n lot of other tests. doctor kept on telling that he was improving until one day then they just said its not possible anymore. then were they just testing the medications on the patients? Is a live patient nothing more than a test object for them? and if not then why a patient who went surgery by the top oncologist in mumbai, india (i won't name him here) and was continuously kept under medical supervision at the medical center mentioned above for radiation and post operative procedures, regularly going through various pathological tests, how did he develop fungal infection and then lung infection. and of course even the cancer was not controlled by their treatment it became pervasive through all parts of his body. who is accountable for his death? Who is guilty here? Isn't it a crime to give chemotherapy to a patient though it has not been able to make anyone relieve of the disease? I hope whoever is reading knows the after-effects of chemotherapy. if you don't, then go to any hospital where cancer is treated and ask the patients. then you will realize why i am putting this thing with so much agony. well..whoever left can't be brought back but I just want to ask is there a cure available or not? Does modern bio-technology has the potential to cure this horrible disease. Anyone, who has any knowledge about it or who has gone with better experience, please share it so that somebody else doesn't have to suffer....please...